Each day is getting harder. No one knows thats why i turn to my blog its a easier realease for me.
I ate a whole meal tonight and on the last forkfull i felt the guilt overtake my brain.
Incase you hadnt yet realised im balimic.
I have been for about a few years now.
I eat 3 set meals and throw 85% of them back up and i excersise for an hour every single day.
When i am sick it feels as though the guilt is lifted from my body that is until the next time i eat.
I guess it started when i started high school in year 7.
I got bullied badlly by a certain group of girls in year 7 and it made me loose all my self-asteem.
I feel guilty right now and will probably throw up in a min.
So im going to draw this blog to a close i will write some more tommorow.
I just want evryone to know im not doing it for sympathy life people think bulimia suffers do it for im doing it because im fat.
Bye xx
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I know how you feel...Im not fat...But i have a terribly low self esteem...For months i obsessed over my weight..because i felt it was a way to deal with bullying and problems...but now i know its not the answer..sometimes i feel low..and totally shit about myself..but its always the most intimidating beautiful and smart girls that get bullied..because the bullies feel them as a threat...remember that and if u ever need anyone to talk to in huge detail about this...just ask me for my msn and ill ALWAYS be there to talk to...I know how hard eating disorders can be
xxxx